Stuff I Learned the Hard Way – It Helps if You’re a Little Crazy

WHAT’S PLAYING: Kings of LeonSex on Fire” (Is it me, or does this song sound like the world’s scariest STD?)

A month ago, I learned that I was sick. Not “break out the black clothes and white lilies” sick. More “your life is going to suck for a while, but you’ll get through it” sick. I didn’t want to make a big deal out of it, so I nodded, put on my big girl panties, and moved forward.

Many of my friends commented on my positive and upbeat attitude. I tell them the secret is simple:

It helps if you’re a little crazy.

In my head, I’m invincible. No disease or injury can do me serious harm. They can only slow me down for a little while. Part of me suspects that if I lost a limb, it would grow back in a couple of weeks. No, I’m not going to try it. I’m crazy, not stupid.

Being just a wee bit out of touch with reality keeps me moving forward. All those travel plans I had to cancel – including my trip to England and, most recently, a writer’s conference in Ohio that I very much wanted to attend – in my mind, they have simply been deferred.

I will admit to being a little scared, but mostly I’m just pissed off. I don’t smoke, do drugs, or engage in unprotected sex. In fact, aside from the occasional cocktail and bone deep laziness, I’m usually very healthy. I didn’t do anything wrong, and yet I feel like my body has betrayed me.

Still, I love my life and no disease is going to stop me from living it.

To my friends and family who have been so supportive, I love you all.

Don’t count me out just yet.


Resolving to Make 2012 the Best Year Ever

WHAT’S PLAYING:  Joni Mitchell “Case of You

I’ve heard many people say that New Year’s resolutions are useless and counterproductive. I respectfully disagree. I think it depends on the person.

I’m a compulsive list maker. I love the little thrill I get every time I complete an item and cross it off. (If you haven’t already figured it out by now, I have control issues.)

New Year’s resolutions are more than just another list of goals to accomplish. It’s trying to bring order to my chaotic life, to home in on what’s most important. It’s cutting through all the bullshit and figuring out what I really want.

So, with that in mind, here is what I hope to accomplish in the next twelve months.

1. Read more. (I’m aiming for a book a week.)

2. Take better care of me. (This covers everything from exercising three times a week to getting at least seven hours of sleep a night.)

3. Become a better friend/daughter/sister (This one isn’t really quantifiable, but I’d be satisfied with talking to friends and family twice a month.)

4. Write every day. (This is a big one!)

5. Keep moving forward. (This one covers my mental state: appreciating what I have, maintaining a positive attitude, accepting my faults, etc.)

My list may not seem like a much, but doing these things will make me a happier, healthier person.

What about you? What are some of your New Year’s resolutions? Or do you prefer to take each year as it comes?

Either way, here’s 2012 finds you in good health and high spirits.