NaNoWriMo is here. Can’t blog now. Too busy writing.
WHAT’S PLAYING: Alicia Keys “Tell You Something (Nana’s Reprise)”
So, I’ve put my first novel aside for a bit and started work on a new book. It’s not going well.
The words are coming, but the little tingle I get when a story finally clicks into place is missing. With my first book, most mornings I’d sit down in front of the computer and the words would just tumble out of my head, one after the other, like some sort of shimmering fountain of awesomeness.
Awash with inspiration, I’d write for hours, stopping only to answer the demands of my coffee-filled bladder. I’d get up, only to discover that my legs had fallen asleep, and lie there, trying not to piss myself or scream as the pins and needles worked their torturous way through my lower extremities.
Those were the days.
When it comes to this new book, instead of a shimmering fountain of awesomeness, I get a viscous deluge of shit. It’s depressing. Like I need a nap after every 2-3 thousand words type of depressing.
Dead moms, madness, ghosts, monsters, trauma, prejudice, all my personal demons are in there. Add to that the knowledge that I’ll have to go back and tease some kind of hope out of all this despair, and you have yourself one tired, morose writer.
Don’t get me wrong. The book is good, probably the best thing I’ve ever written. (Which, at this point, is not saying much. But I’m saying it anyway. So, shut up.) More importantly, it’s the story I need to tell now.
Still, in the words of the immortal B.B. King, the thrill is gone.
I love writing, but days like this remind me that it’s a job, which requires work. That’s why I spend six hours a day slogging through this first draft, pushing through resistance, and forcing the words out when they refuse to emerge on their own.
Because I’m a writer. And that’s what writers do.
In the meantime, if I want thrills and tingles, I’ll call my boyfriend.
1. What is the working title of your book?
2. Who or what inspired you to write this book?
A couple of years ago, I learned that UNESCO (United Nations Educational, Scientific and Cultural Organization) lists my native language—Choctaw—as vulnerable to extinction, joining the list of the estimated 300 languages spoken in North America before the arrival of Christopher Columbus that are endangered or extinct.
This knowledge left me feeling sad, lonely, and more than a little angry. But it also left me with a curious question: What would I do, sacrifice, to save my race from extinction?
And Wildling was born. The story itself has changed a lot since I started playing around with the idea, but I like to think that part of the original inspiration is still present.
3. What genre does your book fall under?
4. What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book?
A member of a nearly extinct magical race strives to protect a human child from various factions, including one led by another of her kind who is determined to kill the boy before he can be used to destroy the world.
5. Which actors would you choose to play your characters in a movie rendition?
Jessica Szohr – Mia Twinblades
When Mia stumbles upon a murder and kidnapping in progress, she finds herself caught up in a conspiracy of slavery and political intrigue. She must choose between the man she could come dangerously close to loving and the child that has captured her heart before her indecision destroys them all.
Noah Gray-Cabey – Connor
Intelligent and curious, Connor’s talent for boosting magic makes him a prize worth killing for.
Sir Michael Gambon – Lachlan Dilwyn
An ex-priest born with the gift of healing, Lachlan lost his magical abilities when he chose wine over his religion.
Henry Simmons – Luc Excer
A telepathic prince banished from his kingdom, Luc is determined to rescue his younger brother from Vadim and Irina at all costs, even if it means betraying his friends.
Gilles Marini – Vadim Aranka
Old and immensely powerful, Vadim is torn between his feelings for Mia and doing what he knows to be right. Connor’s very existence puts the kingdom in jeopardy. But will Mia forgive him for doing what needs to be done?
Blake Lively – Irina Aranka
As Vadim’s ward, Irina has been in love with him since she was a child. Now, with the ultimate tool within her grasp, she’s bent on having him for her own. And nothing, not even his growing feelings for Mia Twinblades, is going to stop her.
6. Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency?
I intend to seek representation and traditional publishing.
7. How long did it take you to write the first draft of your manuscript?
Two to three months. The revision process is taking much, much longer.
8. What else about your book might pique the reader’s interest?
An excerpt, maybe?
Cheval lunged forward and drove his sword into the old woman’s back. Blood splattered the boy’s horrified face. The grey haired woman crumpled to the ground.
Taking advantage of the distraction, Mia dove between Grimm’s legs, barely avoiding his claws. She rolled to her feet, spun around, and vaulted onto his shoulders. Putting one hand on top of his head and the other beneath his jaw, she twisted with all of her strength. The sound of Grimm’s neck snapping reverberated through the alley. He collapsed beneath her, already reverting to his human form.
Strangely disappointed now that the fight was over, she climbed to her feet and looked up just in time to see Cheval fire a crossbow. The arrow struck her in the chest, the force of it knocking her into the wall. She felt a brief sensation of rotten planks crumbling under her weight, and then she fell backward into the building. She lay there—unable to breathe, let alone scream—and stared up at the sky through the holes in the ceiling. The moon hadn’t even risen yet, but it was already shaping up to be a shitty night.
Then the roof came down on top of her.
9. Now comes the part where I’m supposed to tag other authors.
I’m not going to do that this time because I’m lazy. So, any of you out there working on new projects and would like to share, consider yourselves tagged! 🙂
WHAT’S PLAYING: Whitesnake “Here I Go Again”
It’s been a long time since my last post. I want to blame my absence on work or school or poor health. And, while all of the above have been factors, the truth is that I’ve been struggling with an ennui I can’t seem to shake.
So, I’ll be taking the next two weeks off to read my favorite books (LOTR, anyone?), watch my favorite movies (I have all twelve seasons of Murder, She Wrote on DVD. I sense a marathon coming.), and spend time with my favorite people.
If that doesn’t jump-start my creative batteries, nothing will.
See you in two weeks!
WHAT’S PLAYING: Evanescence “Good Enough”
Growing up on the reservation, my family never celebrated Thanksgiving. When I was nine years old, I moved in with my father and transferred to a new school. That year, my teacher decided to cast me in the Thanksgiving Day play as “Indian Squaw #1” and invited my entire family to witness my acting debut.
Everything was going fine until one of my uncles—who had fortified himself with copious amounts of whiskey—decided to give my fourth grade class a history lesson.
In between bad acting and even worse singing, my uncle lectured the rest of the audience on broken treaties, smallpox, massacres, and other examples of European perfidy. When I stepped forward to present the plaster turkey to “Male Pilgrim #1,” my uncle jumped to his feet and shouted, “Don’t do it! They’re going to screw us!”
I was so startled by the outburst that I dropped the turkey. It hit the floor and shattered, effectively ending the play and my short-lived acting career.
Still, this is my favorite time of year, when people express gratitude for what they have while lending their thoughts and prayers to those less fortunate.
Who am I kidding? I’m just in it for the food.